Finally, I’ve had spoke the unspoken word.. It’s not as easy as I think before.. The truth is hurt.. But I must deal with it. The worst part is not the way I see myself to deal with it, but to see him or maybe the correct word is to force him to deal with it. I’m selfish, yes I am. But I think it’s gonna be more complicated If I’m not being honest to myself. And also I’m not in the position to compromise things. It’s not good for our own sake..

Well, am i relief ? Not really, but I think I must try to overcome all of it.. Hope he also can overcome all of it.. I wish him all the best. And hope we can really find what we really want.

From friend to lover.. and back to be friend again..

.. case closed..