Before my last day in this firm..

Finally I arrived in Jakarta. After long long hours of flight. I never remember when is the last time that I’m so excited coming home. It’s been a long journey. And I must end it.

I’m really happy to meet my family and my friends again. In fact I can say that I never been as happy as this moment. I met my best friend Nongki yesterday. We talked so many things. And one thing I notice that she told me that I’m changing. I’m different now. More relax and I look really enjoy the ambience in Jakarta. Hahahaha.. :)) Yes It’s true.. I really enjoy every minute I spend in this city. Well, this city is definitely not the best city in the world. Pollution everywhere. People break the rule all the time. The people is far from nice, especially for stranger. But I do feel this is my home. My family and friend is here. And that is enough for me.

For my future. My next big step is waiting for me. I already get the opportunity, and I will grab it and I will live it. There will be major changes happen in me. But I never worried about changes before, why should I worry now.. ?

But there is something buggin’ me lately. Not because I must deal again with my old issues (that I already tossed away when I go to Manila and US) but there is another stuff comin’. It is really stupid and unrealistic. I should never ever think about it. It’s out of my league. And of course something that I don’t want to happen. Hmm.. I wonder, why I think about this a lot. Maybe this thing is something that I will remember for the rest of my life. Feeling the perfect connection and then you just shut yourself up because everything is not fall into the right place.

Oh man.. I close my eyes now, and slowly but sure I can feel that the world is spinning around me. I feel like in a very big carousel that is never stop spinning. I don’t want to stop.. I just want to keep spinning until everything I worry about is gone.

Hmm.. Talk about several things that I’m concern about. I don’t know why, but lately I’ve become more sensitive especially about my country. I feel like I’m complaining a lot about many things in this country. I never really care about it before (the correct word is that I never give a damn about it). But I think it’s my time to start thinking about it. My neighborhood, my fellow indonesian and my country. My sick..sick.. country. Hmm.. I wonder, can we really make a difference if we want to. Or, we’re just waiting for someone to clean our mess up ? Are we getting more spoiler than ever ? Or we just plainly born as spoil brat.

Waiting For The World To Change – John Mayer

Me and all my friends
We’re all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There’s no way we ever could

Now we see everything that’s going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don’t have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It’s hard to beat the system
When we’re standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That’s why we’re waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It’s not that we don’t care,
We just know that the fight ain’t fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we’re still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change