Well, it’s been a while since I have feeling like this. Quite strange indeed, because he is definitely not my type (my friend’s opinion). But it just really like a perfect crush. I mean he is like perfect man. Smart, tall, dark, handsome.. Hmm.. handsome.. no.. no.. the perfect way to describe him is really.. really.. really.. good looking…:))

Too good too be true huh ? DEFINITELY.. Eventough he is like ‘perfect’.. But if you see the other side. He is also.. Very..very.. unreachable..:)) You only can see it.. But to have it.. I think it is really IMPOSSIBLE..:)) Not my level indeed.. Hehehe.. I mean, I’m not his level..:P
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What is the connection between three things I mention before.. ? Well.. nothing I guess.. But those three things are something that I’ve been thinking lately.. Last Friday, I heard ‘Everlasting Love’ Jamie Cullum.. I never liked that song before.. I think it’s just one average song that is so not my type. But funny thing is, when I heard is last Friday, I just practically smile.. And that kinda smile of mine, when I heard something that tickle my heart, touch my heart in some funny way. And I tried to hear it again, and then I smile again. Suddenly I rush to buy Jamie’s CD.. And I heard all of the songs, and I think that guy is one of one talented people in music industry nowadays.. And he is now one of my favourite singer..:)

Same thing is happen when I heard about London and Strawberry Ice Cream.. Weird huh ? Well, that’s the way it is.. I always want to go back to London.. I think that city is one of my favourite city in the world (yeah right, like I’ve been to all of the cities in the world..:P) But, anyway.. I think London is like my second home for me. Remembering those old days, when I still lived in Manchester.. And once in a month me and my family went to go to London.. One thing I remembered is in London, I tasted my first Strawberry Ice Cream.. And that ice cream is very delicious.. I never liked Ice cream… But I always fall for Strawberry Ice Cream since then.. I guess, the strawberry factor that make me like it very much..
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When you finally got to the final line of a race.. You must feel different.. You’re not running again in the track. Or maybe you’re running again, but in the different track. Either you realize it or not.. either you want it or not.. But somehow.. someway.. it must feel different.. It is the end of something and of course start of something new..

When I graduated in February 2005.. I thought my whole life is gonna be the same.. My friends situation is gonna be the same.. And myself of course is gonna be the same.. I mean, Hey.. it’s only graduation day.. We will still be friends right ? We will walk in the same path right ? But now.. I realize.. that It never be the same again..
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Somehow.. I feel a little shocked when I found out the truth.. I didn’t know how to react.. And everything seems changing continuely..The denial part of me, keep making me steady.. But deep down inside I feel… hurt…

I really expected that this thing will turn out great.. But, well.. you never know right.. Hummf, the best thing to do is to pretend that everything is okay.. or.. maybe.. yeah.. I guess.. I must strong enough to pretend that everything is okay..

It’s 10:17 in the morning.. @ office.. And I got some free time to browse and chat with my cousin.. Well, it’s for a while I think.. And after that, maybe I got another work to do.. Fufufu..

But I guess that’s okay for me.. I rather spend my time doing something.. that doing another ‘boring’ self-study.. All of my friends asked me whether I enjoy working or studying at university.. Suprisingly.. I realise that I enjoy working very much.. I don’t know whether it’s because I like the company I’m working now.. (my friend said that Accenture is always become my dream company to work in) or maybe because the people is very friendly and nice..( especially dev. team) or maybe I found another ‘safe’ environtment , which makes me very comfortable in this office..
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