Hmm.. I’m wondering, in the last 6 months I got sick for about 5 times.. Wow, it’s quite a record for me. Am I become that fragile ? This morning I woke up with a very heavy feeling.. My body felt like burning.. And I suddenly panicked.. Because the day before I visited Tanjung my friend who has been hospitalized because of DB.. I was afraid that I got DB too.. 🙁 I rushed to go to my family doctor and urged to have blood test.. ‘Negative for DB..’ my doctor said to me.. Fiuuhh.. She said that I got ordinary fever and she suggest that I must have bed rest.. Sleep enough, eat enough and plainly relaxing my self.. Well, that’s quite okay for me to do all she’s suggested.. 😛

Why.. oh why.. Just when I started to ‘click’ with this ‘small’ project (not PLN), I found out that the project is not feasible enough to me… Hix.. hix.. :((

One bloody day.. And suddenly I wish I were Wonder Woman !! Hehehehe.. Well.. She’s gorgeous.. she’s sexy.. And she really have her attitude.. She can beat batman and spiderman if she wants.. And superman is down in his knees for her.. She has strong heart and strong will.. Never gave up and always try her best to save the world.. :)) She can do almost everything that is impossible.. And the most important is, nobody.. I mean nobody.. can break her down..

Funny, that somehow I really.. really want to be like her.. Being somebody who has self-confident like tiger.. Never afraid of taking chances.. and never hesitate to speak her mind.. She can run as fast as she can.. And also.. she can handle every bullets that come to her way.. Living the life exactly like she wants.. Yeps right.. exactly as she wants.. sigh..

Don’t laugh at me guyss.. I now I said that it is over.. But somehow, I still feel it.. Hihihihihi.. Yeah I know, you’re all gonna say the same thing.. But I can not help it.. I still curious about that.. About why ? how ? where ?.. Yeah right, there are still many mysteries unsolved.. I know I’m gonna waste my time, but I really really, want to know the truth..

I can not close my eyes.. And I should go to bed right now.. The bad situation this morning, still on my mind.. I just can not help it, how I become very sad.. Indeed, I feel sad.. Feel very broken hearted.. Dissapointed.. And I still can not find a way to see at the bright side.. It just sucks !! And it still and probably will always be sucks !!

Gee.. why I feel like this.. Why I let this take the best of me.. One of my friend said to me earlier that only me who know the best of me.. But I still felt like I’m drowning.. Slowly.. but sure..
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